Out of Hiding

What a blessing to be sharing on Mothers with a Mission.  I am daughter of the Most High God, wife to Michael and mom to five awesome kids.  I am passionate about my faith.  I am also a writer, artist and transformation specialist.  When I am not here you can find the more eclectic side of me at www.thesalvagedpeach.com.

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“Come out of hiding
You’re safe here with Me
There’s no need to cover
What I already see

You’ve got your reasons
But I hold your peace
You’ve been on lockdown
And I hold the key”Steffany Gretzinger, Out of Hiding

Hide and seek is a popular children’s game where players hide while one or two people seek to find them.  As a child I do not remember playing the game much, but I became an expert at hiding.  In my earliest relationships I was often criticized for my feelings, put down and even dismissed.  That taught me that being found or noticed was not safe, but hiding was.

Two years ago at a women’s meeting someone led a devotional on doubt.  I remember the question, “What do you do when you doubt?”  I began sobbing quietly to myself because the answer for me came so quick and so clear, “I HIDE!”  I would like to say that I was already aware of that, but it was truly a startling revelation.  Since then other ways that I hide have been exposed leaving me feeling vulnerable and unsafe, nowhere to run nowhere to hide, so to speak.

Last year I heard an eight year old girl sing the song quoted above and as I type this now that was appropriate for what God was whispering to my heart.  He was beckoning me to come out of a lifetime of hiding.  He saw all the fear, doubt, regret, guilt, shame, contempt and pain, but gently reminded me that I do not have to hide it from Him.  He knew all the reasons I hid, but wanted to offer me peace. He wanted to give me the key to break me out of the prison I had lived in most of my life.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
Psalm 139:7

I do not know about you, but once God illuminates something unhealthy in my life it becomes very uncomfortable to live with it.  I believe that is by His design.  He does not want us miserable, but He does want us free.  We were created to be FREE.  I could tell you that I have completely overcome this, but I have not.  I am still working on it and God is still working with me.  It is still terrifying at times. Even this morning I prayed, “Lord, I am afraid to trust you in this area, but I am going to anyway.”  I believe He honors that.

One thing about overcoming anything, we cannot do it alone.  God has put people in my life in this season in the most unexpected ways.  Their words, their hopes and dreams, their struggles cause my spirit to come alive to HOPE and DREAM and OVERCOME.  I feel these relationships give my spirit the wings it needs to fly right now.

“I am one who would rather hide my brokenness, hide the lamp that is less than sufficient.  But just like with my house, I feel God pushing me a little bit to embrace my broken places and appreciate my weaknesses as much as I appreciate my strengths.”
– Annie F. Downs, Looking for Lovely

Do you hide?  What do you hide from?  Are you hiding from God, relationships or dreams? Have you had a victory in this area of hiding?  Please share your stories. Testimonies are the fuel we need as busy moms who sometimes feel alone, hopeless or discouraged.

Father, when we hide You pursue, thank you for not leaving us hidden, but bringing us into your marvelous light.  Give us the courage to take that first step.  Amen.

Steffany Gretzinger sang Out of Hiding over people she loved that were in a hard place,but this is the heart of the Father singing over you.

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About Mari Dertinger

Mari Dertinger is a wife and mom to five awesome kids ranging in age from 14 to two. Writing has been a huge part of her life since childhood. She loves sharing the truth of the Word as it applies to life and mothering. When she is not writing or juggling family life, she can be found picking up roadside treasures or scouring flea markets and antique stores to create her one of a kind designs for her business The Salvaged Peach.

2 thoughts on “Out of Hiding

  1. The hiding I’ve done in moments of doubt and despair have come when I feel overwhelmed by life and what I’m responsible for. Instead of running to God for help, I put my head down and grit my teeth to get through the hard stuff on my own strength. I also am a work in progress but have made lots of progress with God’s help in the last 3-4 years! Progress looks like running TO God in those moments and trusting His daily provision of energy and focus for what He intends me to accomplish.

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    • Thank you for your transparency. I love what you said, “Progress looks like running to God.” That is great insight into His perspective.

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